Perspective Change

After being on bed rest for 18 weeks I must say that I appreciate some of the mundane tasks of being a mom so much more than before! Of course Im writing this so that in a month or two when Im complaining about such mundane tasks I can read this and being thanful for my job as Mom. Since Saturday I have been doing a little more because on Sunday I hit the 35 week mark. Knowing our baby is big enough, has steriods for its lungs, I still hadnt dialated as of last Wed along with the fact that the kids, Scott, and I are just done with bedrest brought Scott and I to a point of let's just let happen what God allows at this point. We have peace that the baby will be okay and I can just see me carrying the baby to 40 weeks with constant contractions. I sure hope not, but I really would like 2 weeks with my current three kiddos. I feel like I have missed out on so much with them these last 18 weeks. So some of the exciting things I have done so far are that I cleaned the van, linen closet, and one of our messy kitchen cabinets with vitamins and kids dishes. On Sunday I baked for the first time in 18 weeks! I made Scott 2 homemade pumpkin pies. The kids and I had a blast! The kids were covered in flour and played with the extra raw pie crust for 2 hours! That morning I went back to church too! It was awesome to be able to worship in a group again and hear a great sermon! On Monday afternoon, I was finally alone with the kids and got to cook dinner!! It was delicious and Scott declared that Im a better cook than his mother and he is glad Im back in the kitchen! On Tues I went back to BSF and had no one come over in the afternoon! I took care of my kids all by myself all day! It was so nice and Im looking forward to it again tomorrow! Even after Caleb threw food all over the kitchen while bathing Ryan Im still glad I was alone. There is something wrong with that. Bekah has been having a very difficult time this last month and has become stuck to me and very disobedient. So right now Im really working to basically re teach her to do it the first time she is told because that was not how it worked with Grandma. She became more and more in charge but I couldnt do a whole lot about it without causing a lot of other problems. Discipline has become a constant with her around here. Not fun but Im just happy to finally be able to do it again! I pray that we are able to get through to her quickly. Homeschooling with Ryan had become miserable this last month, but the last two days with Grandma gone has been awesome again. Im so glad that was all that it was. Ive been able to push Caleb on his tricycle back and forth over and over the last two days too! I will say that by the end of each day Ive been pretty sore which is so pathetic, but I guess that is expected after doing very little for 18 weeks. Im so thankful to be getting my life back again!