32 weeks down!

Well here I am 32 1/2 weeks pregnant! That means I have been on strict bedrest for 15 weeks now. I know those who have never been on bedrest think that it sounds like fun, but I promise you it is not. Im so tired of relying on other people to take care of my kids, feed all of us, and take care of my home. Dont get me wrong, Im am more than thankful for all of the help we have recieved! After asking my Dr on Wednesday if I could get off of bedrest he actually started laughing and said, "You mean after you deliver?" Now dont think my doctor isnt very sensitive because he really is. I actually asked him at a time we were joking about other things. However, his response made me realize two things. First, he obviously doesnt expect me to keep this baby in me until the 37 week mark. Secondly, Im almost done, but about to go insane! I only have 5 weeks at the most to go, but Im ready to be free again. Two weeks ago my doctor did a fetile fibronectin test which showed that my body is starting to begin early labor too early. This test says that I have a 50% chance of delivering any day after the test was taken. 3 days after the test I did indeed start to have very strong contractions close together. The Doctor sent me to the hospital and I was definitely beginning labor. He was able to give me procardia and tons of fluids which helped stop everything. He then sent me home with a giant bottle of medicine to take every 8 hours to hopefully keep everything calm. After about 4 hours from taking the medicine the contractions always begin, but nothing as strong or close as the day I was hospitalized. I have been to the office twice since that night and the doctor said Im still not dialiated on the inside but the outside is opening more and more and my cervix is softening more and more as well. This just means that the contractions are real, not just braxton hicks. The doctor thinks that once I start to dialate I will go quickly, so his goal is to keep that from happening by taking medicine and bed rest. I honestly just hope that I do make it to 37 weeks and go into labor immediately once off of bedrest. I pray that I dont contract non stop until 39 1/2 weeks like I did with Caleb (although I didnt actually have pre term labor with him just an over active uterus). My stomach is already so tired! Anyway, I am getting so excited to meet our newest addition!! It is very very strong and active! Ryan is very excited to hold the baby and take a bath with it. Bekah wants me to keep it in my belly forever, but get off of bedrest so that she can go back to the children's museum. Caleb just loves to hug and kiss my belly not understanding anything Im sure. My prediction is that Ryan and Caleb will love the baby, but will show jealousy and be extremely needy. Bekah will tell us to take the baby back and will act out without remorse and down play how she feels. Im not so sure Im ready for the adjustments, but we will be okay! We are praising God for taking care of our baby for the past 32 1/2 weeks!!